its so difficult and tiring to keep up with maintaining one's social circle. i have not made an appearance, like ANYWHERE this semester. i didnt even go to my own fac's party. it just gets so tiring and boring after all and i simply cant muster up enough enthusiasm to drag myself to one of these events- its so much nicer watching a dvd at home with a friend you're so familiar with you can be with her in crazy hair and sweatpants. and also cos german parties suck. no seriously. company is of course important but sometimes there's little to do when they play scheiss music.

well, there definitely are repercussions for being lazy. after a few times of saying you wont go, people stop asking. and this is WHY, when now there will be a party at my place, it awkward for me to invite certain people because i've had practically little or no contact to them since the last party (a year ago!) ahh. i mean, i could say that we're just all too busy (which we are) and that some of these people are just not interesting enough for me to make a proper effort (which is actually not too far from the truth. med students are just so urghhh sometimes.) but still. one has to try to integrate oneself again. its a tiring and mostly annoying process, all that small talk and endless conversation about medicine medicine medicine. i mean, come on!!!!